On being Loved

On being Loved

On being Loved… by your Maker.

Nothing beats being at peace and secure. Knowing that every whisper of your heart is heard. Every tear is seen. Every nakedness covered. And in turn you willingly come and surrender. Oh how beautiful is the heart that is surrendered! It is full of light and shines off a sweet fragrance of deep contentment.

Oh how beautiful is that surrendered heart!

J.

On saying goodbye

On saying goodbye

I recently went to a funeral. I wasn’t related to the person who was being buried, but I felt grief. 

Watching the husband show his love for the deceased wife touched my heart. I thought to myself  “What a great way to have loved.” There was something divine about it, because you don’t put someone else above you unless God helps you do it. 

I think those are ways the LORD manifests Himself. Just ways where you feel His touch, especially to unbelievers. A love like that makes you pause and think about heaven. For a brief moment you wonder, what if…

 I pray by God’s grace some were touched at that funeral.  

So this goes to F. and D.

The mourners are filing up. They are here to say with me, goodbye. But I don’t want to say goodbye today. You are laying down on your last cushion and you look prettier than the first day I met you. I’m supposed to let you go now, but I don’t want to say goodbye today. My heart is filled with too much pain, I can’t bear not looking at you ever again. I don’t want to say goodbye today. Our children gather round, they want to make sure I am following the protocol. Go, say my last goodbye, and walk away from you for the last time. But I don’t want to say goodbye today. What do I have to live for, what is my hope if I can’t ever hear you laugh again? I will not say goodbye today.  Still my heart hears this faint whisper. And I take heed because it stills the storms inside. That I will see you again. In a glorious form, with no disease, no worries, no limitations. That you, the happiest I could imagine will be laughing and smiling in the Presence of your Father. And that on that day I will meet you again, without any barriers. So I will say goodbye today. Because I am not saying goodbye, see you in the upstairs land, in heaven.

On letting go

On letting go

There is a time in your life when you are in the process of a separation when you finally agree to let it go. You finally resign yourself to the inevitable, this relationship is not coming back alive again.

Staying stuck in the same place is not beneficial to either party.  It just prolongs the pain and suffering. There comes a time when you accept what has happened. The role you have played. You take responsibility for it, you repent to the LORD and to others, and you let the LORD do the rest.

King Solomon, the wisest man who have ever lived said this in Ecclesiastes” there is a time for everything under the sun.” Ecclesiastes 3

So this is my time to let it go. I let it go. I have been given the freedom to seek my Maker with all I have. And not apologize for it.

All is well.

J.